Bullying. Say no to it!

“You fucking ugly ass bitch!” Those were the words I would hear day in and day out. I was afraid to speak up but today was different. Today I was not going to let Justin and his friends get away with it. “Why the fuck are you bothering me? Go to hell you asshole!” It was the first time I had cursed and even though I felt strong they broke me down. Justin laughed, “Shut up you fat ass bitch! You fucking Mexican.” I felt the tears come on and let them roll. I was defenseless, the whole class was laughing and the girls I considered friends were ignoring me. The teacher, the person who was to be in charge was nowhere to be seen.

I looked around quickly and hoped that someone would help me but it was impossible. “Just leave me alone! Oh and have you looked in the mirror? I am not the only one who is ugly!” I yelled back and walked out of the room ten minutes before class. I was always running away and today for the first time I stood up to the bullies. Yet when I went to lunch a classmate who had been neutral throughout the whole year walked up to me, “I heard the girls say that they’re going to jump you after school.” I panicked and was afraid. I felt like this was it, they were going to seriously hurt me and I could almost feel the blows as tears rolled down my face. If I went to the teacher I would anger the class and be called a snitch. If I said nothing and went home bruised my parents would get mad at me and ask why I had let myself get beaten up. I went to my next class in fear but no one said anything, they only looked at me and laughed.

Before I got to my next class I went in search of my homeroom teacher and broke down in front of her. I only told her that there was a rumor that my classmates were angry at me for no reason and were threatening to come after me. Mrs.Galzur hugged me and said she would talk to the girls and we would get this solved. Before we went home she pulled me aside along with the two girls who had harassed me previously. Mrs. Galzur asked them if the rumors where true and both denied it, they hugged me and said “People like to say shit, don’t worry we won’t harm you.” Their sour words were covered in honey and topped with sugar. Mrs. Galzur nodded and sent us off home. I walked out of that room at the speed of light and ran home. Two years of bullying, two years of emotional and mental abuse, two years that left my self-esteem in the sewers. A class full of people that took out their anger on me, and even those who didn’t say a thing were a part of it. Still I survived just like Kelly Clarkson says, “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” and it did.

That was six years ago. But it only took 2 years of my life to make me feel like shit, like I was worthless. I became ashamed of my nationality because my classmates would say “That’s so Mexican.” and it was an insult to be compared to a Mexican. I became ashamed of myself and thought “I am fat, no one will ever love me. No on will ever tell me im beautiful or that I am cute. I am ugly…who is going to ever find me attractive? I am not worth anything.” I became suicidal at one point in high school yet somewhere…maybe it was my friends…my high school…my family…or something that caused me to realize that I was worth so much more. I was loved. I had wonderful friends who accepted my flaws and loved them anyways.

I made it through. I convinced my self that I could be loved and I was loved. I was beautiful and I am beautiful. I am not that size 0 that the media portrays but I am a size 11 going to 9 (in junior jeans) I am an x-large going on large. Still the only reason I wear an x-large is because I am well endowed…anyways I am not a Victoria Secret model but I am beautiful because I believe in myself and I am one day going to be a lawyer or atleast a college graduate.

Now I am going to tell you ONE thing! YOU ARE WORTH SO MUCH! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! YOU ARE AWESOME! YOU ARE ONE OF A KIND! YOU ARE STRONG! YOU ARE THE BEST THING EVER AND NEVER NEVER NEVER LET ANY ONE TELL YOU OTHER WISE!

Never let anyone hurt you mentally, emotionally, physically. Ask for help. No one will judge you because it is not your fault that you are being hurt, its the bullies fault! They are to blame and if you let them keep going at you, you are only letting them win! They will go on and hurt other like they have hurt you!

LOVE YOURSELF!! And if you see someone getting hurt offer them your friendship and kind words and tell someone with authority what is going on. Don’t let someone die in front of your eyes. <3

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